Walking, sort of. Another label?

Walking, sort of. Another label?

I was always going to post a ‘Yay! she’s finally walking’ type post, I suppose, so here it is – yesterday Miss Belle took about 15-20 steps all by herself, twice!! Naturally I took out the ‘walking’ milestone card which she wouldn’t pose with without holding onto her highchair. Something tells me she’s got a bit more practicing to do before she gets her confidence.

Of course, I didn’t have my phone to capture it for Daddy when it happened. Poor Daddy. When I tried to force her to do it again with lots of “come on, walk to Mummy, walk to Mummy!” she point blank refused. She still struggles to get to standing from sitting or crawling, so she only did it once she was already holding my hands and bravely let go. Miss Belle is now 20 months old, so I think this classes her as a ‘late walker’ (if you like to label things – it’s odd, I’d never thought about how much we use ‘labels’ until she fell under the ‘late walking’ label, and from now on I’m going to make a conscious effort not to label people.) We saw her Physio again a few weeks ago and she said it will still take her longer to find her confidence because she’s more wobbly than most toddlers her age. And I think because of that, I wasn’t convinced it was going to happen any time soon. And, my oh my, I was amazed at the pride and love and overwhelming joy I felt when it happened.

That crazy feeling of excitement came just at the right time.

About 15 minutes earlier I’d been sat in the living room sighing as I reached for her jigsaw for the gazillionth time, and wondered, not for the first time this week, whether I should look for another part time job. I have started to have a few wobbles myself about this SAHM thing. I definitely don’t want my old stressful, demanding job back, but I am starting to get bored at home. Not every day, but on the quiet days, when we have nothing planned. Bored of the same daily routines, bored of not being able to do anything without a whingey toddler shouting ‘mummy, Mummy, MUMMMY!’ and demanding to be picked up. I have only felt this way a few times over the last week though. I think it’s because we were all ill and sort of housebound for a few days, which drove me crackers and I was fed up with all the biting (thankfully **touches wood** she’s not been so bad at that the past few days).

Plus, the other night I was deleting some old text messages from some friends when we spoke about going back to work, and it made me feel sort of flat. And it got me thinking that maybe it’s just me that doesn’t like this new SAHM label. I didn’t feel flat about not working when I was on maternity leave, so why should I now? When I made the big decision to give up work I was worried what people would think of me. And although I’m happy with my decision 90% of the time, I still feel uncomfortable about it, and, sort of judged. I suppose as life goes on there will be days where I get fed up and ponder if what I am doing is right for all of us, and actually, for me.

It’s a strange thing, this parenting thing. It has you pulling your hair out with boredom one minute, and feeling so thankful and happy the next.

But, when I look back on this week, I will remember the highest high of love and happiness as I watched Miss Belle take those first few steps. I am so thankful I was there and not at work. I suppose the hair pulling (figurative and literal – oh yes, something else she’s just discovered), is worth it all in the end.

The Pramshed



  1. 9th September 2016 / 12:30 pm

    You sum it up perfectly! The hair pulling is definitely worth it in the end! I totally agree with what you said about labels too!!! We need to look at people not labels ❤️ Thank you for linking up to #ablogginggoodtime

    • thisismenow
      9th September 2016 / 12:48 pm

      Thanks for reading

  2. 11th September 2016 / 10:38 am

    timely post as Baby Munch has started walking this weekend! I always think my SAHM pals rock and have to work just as hard us those who are working or in part-time jobs. It’s not easy. Plus SAHMums have to think of more meals to plan!!! I hope your blog and friends network make being a SAHM easier.

    • thisismenow
      11th September 2016 / 2:25 pm

      Thanks – annoyingly Miss Belle hasn’t walked since I wrote this! I think it was a fluke!!! And thanks for your comment – I do feel better when I write about it all. Getting to know other bloggers is also helpful and interesting to hear others experiences. Thanks for reading.

  3. 11th September 2016 / 10:44 pm

    I couldn’t be a SAHM mum, and others have told me they couldn’t go to work with a little one. Each to their own and all that! 🙂 Well done to Bella for taking her first steps! #SharingTheBlogLove

    • thisismenow
      12th September 2016 / 10:56 am

      Thanks! She’s not done it again since though!! Think it was a fluke! Thanks for reading X

  4. The Mum Project
    13th September 2016 / 8:21 am

    Ah that is amazing! I can’t wait for my little one to walk, although has it been hard now that she’s on the move?? #bigpinklink

    • thisismenow
      13th September 2016 / 9:00 am

      Ah thanks for stopping by. I definitely jinxed it as she’s now only walking holding hands again! Oh well!!

  5. 13th September 2016 / 8:01 pm

    Your right its funny that we label things, the saying that know is ‘late walker, early talker’. So watch out you might have a little chatterbox soon. I can relate to how you are feeling, its like once you have made that step to a SAHM it does feel different to maternity leave. Because then it was like you were meant to be off work and that was all normal and acceptable. Now you have a new label and I often feel like people judge me for my decision. But it wasn’t a decision I took lightly. It just made finance sense for me to take another year off until my eldest started school. Why I feel the need to explain this to people I am not sure??!?? Thank you for joining us at #SharingtheBlogLove x

    • thisismenow
      14th September 2016 / 8:42 am

      Exactly! We just feel the need to justify ourselves when we shouldn’t! And as for the label she’s a ‘tried walking a week ago didn’t really like it so won’t be doing that again any time soon babbling but not properly talking toddler’! Haha – thanks for reading, I’ll be back! X

  6. Katy - Hot Pink Wellingtons
    13th September 2016 / 8:58 pm

    My son was also a ‘late walker’ – around 16 months. I remember starting to worry about it a bit, and saying to my mum one morning that I didn’t think he had any wish to do it. Then that afternoon he got up and walked across the room! I think he was just waiting until he could do it properly – he doesn’t like to get things wrong! I think whatever decision we make about returning to work or not, we always worry about whether we’ve made the right one. I know I do! But it sounds like you know you have – seeing those first steps is amazing! Thanks so much for joining us at #SharingtheBlogLove – we’d love to see you back on Thursday!

    • thisismenow
      14th September 2016 / 8:40 am

      Ah thanks Katy, I think maybe Miss Belle is like your son as she’s now not done it since!! Think it was a fluke and/or she decided she didn’t like it enough to continue to walk properly! Xx

  7. 15th September 2016 / 4:49 pm

    Yay for the walking!! My eldest was also a ‘late walker’ (17 months first steps, 18 months before doing it more regularly than crawling,) and anyone who knows me, knows that I also hate labels, buzzwords, etc!!!! So if she is only walking intermittently, I think they go back to crawling for a bit possibly, after those magical first steps!!
    I feel the same about the SAHM thing too-I’ve been one for 3&1/2 years, and often have never felt so bored and frustrated. There’s been lots of good stuff mixed in, but I’d say they were the 2 predominant feelings. The children have just started nursery 2 days a week, and I feel like a much better person for it!

    • thisismenow
      15th September 2016 / 8:15 pm

      Oh thanks for reading and commenting. She’s definitely doing it intermittently – only 4/5 steps at a time since! I just some patience I guess..For everything!

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